Yeah but then you hit the point that I’m at which is "I do this SO MUCH and my diet is SO GOOD why do I still look SO AVERAGE!?!
and you see concerning behaviors from yourself that are the beginnings of eating disorder territory and start fucking with supplements that simultaneously “dont work” but yet are banned by sporting bodies… and the stupid exercise becomes part of your mental health problem.
Nah, I’m on top of it. I had a real struggle putting the brakes on my last cut. I dropped a kilo(2lbs) a week for 12 weeks and when it came to an end I was like “Number must keep dropping! Number cant go back up!” and it took a few weeks for me to calm down and get back to normal eating. Doesnt help that I have addict wiring in my brain.
I had a lot of empathy for teenage girls for a few weeks, I was SO CLOSE to having visible abs but I was hitting burnout hard and needed to go back to maintenance for a bit.