I hope you don’t mind, I creeped on your profile and found prior posts with your photos. You look like a perfectly reasonable woman. I interact with women far less attractive than you regularly and don’t feel disgusted.

Do you have a therapist? A professional would be a great resource for digging into the reactions you’re seeing.

If you bite the nub early it may mostly vanish into the kiwi. As long as I remember to do that I don’t mind eating the nub.

Go to a local music shop and look for musician’s earplugs with a rated dB reduction. At least -8dB, but a bigger reduction won’t make your experience worse, it’ll just make things even quieter.

I have some from a major guitar manufacturer that I’ve been using at the infrequent shows I go to for a decade. They were $10 then, and it looks like that’s still true. I clean after using, but I wasn’t really expecting to get this many shows out of them.

They don’t muffle sounds, it just sounds quieter. Without earplugs I need to stand on the other side of the room/field to be comfortable. I’ll still leave with ear pain and feeling exhausted. With earplugs I’m comfortable right in front of the speaker stack, and leave feeling exhilarated.

They’ve been a huge upgrade in my enjoyment of shows and I’m very grateful to my friend for dragging me to the shop and making me buy them.

There was also a fad to spam links to communities, some of them made up. Entire chains of comments would just be nonsense. A crackdown on that would make sense.

Here it’s not really an issue. There I’d usually consider a link to a community without additional text to be spam.

Ham is cured, which is considered processed.

Not OP, but it could be a taste thing:

In the US it’s frequently wet cured to save money. At the deli there are a lot of varieties of ham that mostly just taste sweet, with no noticeable ham flavor or saltiness. This is what usually ends up on Hawaiian pizza.

Part of the problem may be lack of tagging and filtering tools.

For example:

I’m not interested in memes so if a community is largely filled with them, my only way to avoid them may be to block the community. This includes communities that I might otherwise subscribe to, or want to engage with.

This is also tied into community fragmentation, community discoverability, and feeling the need to browse All to see anything. I don’t know how widespread my issue is, but I have seen others mentioning having extensive block lists of communities.