My hair is receding, idk if starting a low dose earlier instead of an avg dose later would help me keep more of it?
Unambiguously yes. I implore you to start HRT as soon as possible if for no other reason than this alone.
Congrats on the egg crack and I’m so fucking sorry to hear about your parents. But, what you do with your body is your choice and only your choice. Coming out to them, if ever, is a totally different hurdle than taking medication that makes you feel better in your body.
I was so scared of taking HRT at first too, it feels like such a giant step. But my only regret was waiting as long as I did. Just a shade under three years now and it was the best thing I ever did for myself. Physical changes are one thing, and slower than any of us would like but holy heck are mental and hormonal are it’s own bliss!
If you can go to a doctor and get blood levels first, that would be for the best. They will start you on a lower dose that builds up. But, having said that the majority of trans women are on 200mg estradiol and 100 mg spironolactone each twice a day. I hope you do not have to go underground to get your medication, but I urge you to not delay. You’re future self will thank you. If it eases your mind, just remember the vast majority of changes will stop AND revert if you decide to stop taking HRT.
What an objectively evil thing to think, let alone say.